There was this one time in which i felt completely alone and there was no one right beside me to help me go through it. It was attacking my mind because it just would not leave my mind and it was pretty exhausting having so many things in my mind and especially that one thought in which I did not want to remember. That day when I was with my best friend Ana Lucia she helped a lot in the condition I was in and she was worrying a lot. She was telling me that maybe this thought is in my mind for so long because I have not gotten over it. The thing is I wanted to get over it. It was not just a thought. It was someone that could not leave my head and leave me alone. That person was the guy I was going out with. This whole thought that has been in my head for several hours has been all about him and it took me 3 days to stop thinking about him or to be honest, what he did to me. If there was a way to get rid of that thought that easily then I would have done it several minutes or hours ago. His name is Aaron. While we were going out, he was really sweet to me and I thought that nothing could go wrong with him, but after all I was so wrong that I could not actually believe that something like this could happen to a person. Aaron used to tell me that he “loved” me and that I was already a huge part of his life and of course I did always thought he was very sweet and that we would be together for a while but it only lasted for five months and two weeks. The day when I broke up with him, it did have a reason of why I decided to leave him and it was because I was not the only girl in his life. Really? Did he have the necessity to make “two girls happy at the same time”. Couldn’t he have had tried that with only one girl? Was it that difficult? I do not think so. After I was told that he was cheating, I did not really know what to do. When I broke up with him he practically blamed me and told me that the girl he was with was his cousin, but really, no one loves his or her cousin so much that you stop going out with your friends just because of her. I got mad that day and I could not believe he blamed me for the things he did to me, apart from being stressed over school, I was just sad and I felt defeated, and when I say defeated I really mean it. He practically took advantage of me and the other girl at the same time. Maybe the other girl did not actually know about me since we never actually exposed the fact that we were together, but still it left me hurt and I did not really know what to do so I remember that that day I just fell asleep for the whole afternoon and when I woke up my phone was vibrating and it was my guy best friend calling me and he asked me if I was all right because he knew already about what happened and I immediately started crying. He came to my house and spent the whole time with me soothing me that everything was going to me ok, that he was an idiot to leave me, and while he was telling me all those sweet things I was just laying down thinking about what Aaron did to me. My guy best friend’s name is Roger. Roger and I did like each other before the whole thing about Aaron happened but we were best friends from the beginning so it was feeling kind of weird that we liked each other so we just kept being best friends. Aaron was a really jealous guy and he actually thought I was cheating on him with Roger. Right now I feel fine. I got over Aaron already but the thought keeps playing in my head like a ruined disco but I learned to accept it and I am never letting someone into my life as easily as it was for him.
