Once defeated, but never again

There was this one time in which i felt completely alone and there was no one right beside me to help me go through it. It was attacking my mind because it just would not leave my mind and it was pretty exhausting having so many things in my mind and especially that one thought in which I did not want to remember. That day when I was with my best friend Ana Lucia she helped a lot in the condition I was in and she was worrying a lot. She was telling me that maybe this thought is in my mind for so long because I have not gotten over it. The thing is I wanted to get over it. It was not just a thought. It was someone that could not leave my head and leave me alone. That person was the guy I was going out with. This whole thought that has been in my head for several hours has been all about him and it took me 3 days to stop thinking about him or to be honest, what he did to me. If there was a way to get rid of that thought that easily then I would have done it several minutes or hours ago. His name is Aaron. While we were going out, he was really sweet to me and I thought that nothing could go wrong with him, but after all I was so wrong that I could not actually believe that something like this could happen to a person. Aaron used to tell me that he “loved” me and that I was already a huge part of his life and of course I did always thought he was very sweet and that we would be together for a while but it only lasted for five months and two weeks. The day when I broke up with him, it did have a reason of why I decided to leave him and it was because I was not the only girl in his life. Really? Did he have the necessity to make “two girls happy at the same time”. Couldn’t he have had tried that with only one girl? Was it that difficult? I do not think so. After I was told that he was cheating, I did not really know what to do. When I broke up with him he practically blamed me and told me that the girl he was with was his cousin, but really, no one loves his or her cousin so much that you stop going out with your friends just because of her. I got mad that day and I could not believe he blamed me for the things he did to me, apart from being stressed over school, I was just sad and I felt defeated, and when I say defeated I really mean it. He practically took advantage of me and the other girl at the same time. Maybe the other girl did not actually know about me since we never actually exposed the fact that we were together, but still it left me hurt and I did not really know what to do so I remember that that day I just fell asleep for the whole afternoon and when I woke up my phone was vibrating and it was my guy best friend calling me and he asked me if I was all right because he knew already about what happened and I immediately started crying. He came to my house and spent the whole time with me soothing me that everything was going to me ok, that he was an idiot to leave me, and while he was telling me all those sweet things I was just laying down thinking about what Aaron did to me. My guy best friend’s name is Roger. Roger and I did like each other before the whole thing about Aaron happened but we were best friends from the beginning so it was feeling kind of weird that we liked each other so we just kept being best friends. Aaron was a really jealous guy and he actually thought I was cheating on him with Roger. Right now I feel fine. I got over Aaron already but the thought keeps playing in my head like a ruined disco but I learned to accept it and I am never letting someone into my life as easily as it was for him.

When I First Met Him

When I first met this mexican guy, I though he was really hot. We were camping in a place kind of far from Mexico D.F, but it was a lot of fun. I had a great time. I met a lot of people in which I miss with all my heart and soul and I wish I could visit them anytime I want but, of course, I still have school. Anyways, about the guy I met, lets say his name is James. James was a really nice guy. We kind of understood each other pretty easily and he was pretty chill.
He was really smart and almost always knew the answer to every question someone asked him or I asked him. We talk to each other almost everyday and he still sounds smart even when we are talking through internet and not in person. Yeah, it was really intimidating, but it was funny at the same time. I laughed all the time with him and whenever we were talking we shared a lot of anecdotes and they where all funny and I always had a great time with him. He was the kind of guy who I trusted and of course still trust and will always trust.
In those four days, we did not actually talk for the first day and we started talking on the second day because I was with only one person of Guatemala and the rest where from Mexico, and because of that he always came to our room and hung out with us girls and talked to us for a lot of time and then he was going to play foot ball or going with his friends but he spent a long time with us talking about a lot of stuff like children and more stuff. I remember that one time when we were at the pool, he was in the pool and I was trying to tan in which failed because I did not actually tan a single bit. Then he came with the boyfriend of one of my girl friends and we started talking about when i was coming back to Mexico and I started thinking about it and that night I remember messaging my mom to tell her I want to go to Mexico to visit my friends and she did not even think about it she just said yes and I was like "ok? That was weird and I could convince her too fast...maybe she is up to something." So I told my friends that I am coming to Mexico pretty soon and they got really happy and when i came back home my mom told me "Yeah I am glad that you asked us to go to Mexico because your dad, sister and I will be on a trip and we kind of forgot your ticket." and i was like ok? Thank you mom, but i was not really mad I was actually happy that she forgot to buy me the ticket and I was going to visit my friends.
When I told him the news he was really happy and I was happy as well. I could not wait to go there to Mexico and visit all my friends. I was really exited and I was looking forward to visiting them. When James and I started talking about the trip I am taking to Mexico, really I had nothing planned for those days I am staying and he was asking me that whenever I could I should go out with him at least for a day and I told him "Yeah well I am free for several days right now because there are not really much people that know I am going to Mexico" and he told me "Ok that is perfect but still tell me whenever you can and I will take you to the movies or to drink a coffee" and I replied "Ok just tell me which day" because he did not understand that I was free for like everyday and he kept insisting about that but I laughed a lot that day and it was worth it because he got happy when I told him I will see him soon.

Everyone in this world should have a best friend. Someone they tell everything to. Someone who cries with you after a long time of laughter or after a sad movie. Someone who no matter what will be there for you. Today I will talk to you about my best friend, Ana Lucia. She is a really amazing person, someone I can count with 24/7. She has an amazing personality. She always listens to me whenever I have a problem and if I was having problems or I had to talk to someone I know she would be there even if it is three in the morning. We both are like twin sisters. We talk at the same time, we say hello at the same time, we even eat at the same time. Every time I start liking a guy somehow it is like she reads my mind and she asks me if I like him and really I do not even know how can she know. It is like there is a chip in my head and then she takes it out, checks everything that is inside my head and then starts talking to me about it.
I have known her for two years now. At first I was pretty shy. In my school you have to take a course before getting in, if you are new, of course. There is where I met her. We at first did not talk at all because I was really shy back then, I was pretty nervous about school and meeting new people. The second day I started having more trust with myself and started being more talkative, and the group I was hanging out with, no one came to school that day exept for Ana Lucia. There we started to talk a lot about life and friends and we got to know eachother pretty well. She is a very cool person and a very trustworthy person. That same day we started calling eachother "blondie". That was really funny and the story is kind of long but I could keep talking about it and never stop laughing about it.
We tell eachother everything. She knows all my secrets, all my adventures, the guys I have liked, the guy I like right now. She even knows my favorite dog in which isn't actually a real dog, but I have two real dogs. She loves my dogs and she likes to play with my dogs while I am doing some homework or helping my sister with her homework or while I chat with my friends and then we start gossiping around and she talks to me about a lot of stuff going on in her life and I talk to her as well about what is going on with my life. Somehow, we end up thinking the same, like our minds are connected and we do discuss but it is like a small discussion over who is wrong or who is right and it is pretty funny to watch us discuss. Once when we were at my house we started discussing about guy stuff and it was pretty funny. Really I would rather going out with a monkey rather than going out with a hot guy from Abercrombie&Fitch and we started discussing about that and then she realized I was somehow right with that and then my sister came in and started talking about the guy she likes and how "hot" he is. All we told her was we were not even interested in that guy at all and of course my sister got mad, but oh well she is my little sister so she would have to get over it.
Last year, when we both went to the beach with my family, we were pretty exited to actually go to the beach because it was her first time with me. It was really fun, we hung out like always, and we always slept until it was five in the morning but it was worth it even if we just wanted to sleep the day after that. We laughed a lot, we were kind of making up inside jokes and we already have like billions of inside jokes but its fun to make them up I have a lot of fun. We were obviously seeing who was passing past us to see if we actually know someone or not and then we started to think we know everyone because we have had been there for a while now and sitting there waiting for someone to pass but it never happened in which I thought it was lame because there is not one friend of ours that does not like the beach so we found it odd but we got in the house and just started eating and yeah we had a lot of fun I do not regret a second of it. Well my point with this is everyone has a best friend even if you cannot notice it. No one can keep their secret to themselves because it is a lot of stress and it is not good emotionally and mentally to keep secrets to themselves. So if you have a best friend like mine, you are lucky to have him or her and it is worth keeping.

My Childhood Memory

When I was a little girl, around three or four years old, I saw a pair of elegant shoes in a store, and I immediately told my mom and dad that I wanted those shoes. They brought me the shoes of course because I started begging them. My dad wanted to buy them to me the second I started begging them but my mom was still being difficult to convince. So when my mom looked at me and told me a loud and clear "no" I just stopped begging and went to sit down on a chair that was in the store while my mother was buying some shoes. I remember that my dad came to sit down beside me and he said he will talk to my mom and try to convince her. Of course, he could convince my mom and I ended up with a pair of elegant shoes in which I loved with all my heart and soul. The first time I used them, in which was in that same day, my mom told me I looked like a little lady with those shoes. That I acted as if I am a woman instead of just a kid. I was rather fascinated with those shoes and I still have them guarded in my closet since they were my first elegant pair of shoes. These shoes where so small and they were so elegant as well that I still remember how I always cleaned them everytime they got a dirty spot. I did not like it when my shoes where dirty. I was morelike a perfectionist. My mom told me that, apart from the fact that those where my favorite shoes, I even used them to play tennis. I laughed when my mom told my about that because I could not really believe that I used them to play a sport. My mom told me that it was love at first sight. I was being stubborn about not leaving the store untill I had these red shoes. For me, they where the best shoes in the whole world, and here is another funny story, I used to to sleep! My mom always tried to talk to me about that and that it would not be comfortable to have shoes while sleeping but, really, I was a stubborn child in love with some red shoes that had high heals. Well, they were not that high but still they were for me. Another part of my childhood story is when I was baking tortillas. I loved to make tortillas for my family and I always wanted to help cooking when it had something to do with the tortillas. I baked tortillas like five times each week. I always stayed with my grandfather from the side of my dad from his hometown, because I love him, and I have always had a good relationship with him. I do not know what would happen if he was not part of my life. I would not feel complete. My granddad is the best person in the whole world. I love him and thats why i like to go to visit him. On the other hand, there is my grandmother from the side of my father. She is a very loyal, honest, sweet person I have ever known in my whole life. Just when I was born, she took her time to make a cover for me in which took her several months. I still have it with me and I use it sometimes. The cover means a lot to me since she was the first person to give me somethin she made herself. I have always loved my grandmother and I always will love her unconditionally. I have always liked to sing. When I was a five year old girl, I started to sing songs of Britney Spears. I was a huge fan of her and I had all the discs, and I remember that when I was like a six year old girl, I practically wanted to be Britney Spears when i grew up. Though i had a funny story happening, I thought that the singers, bands, etc, did not actually exist. I thought it was just an effect made by the television or the computer and then my mom told me that they do exist and that they are all persons in real life and I just blushed.